- OwEn -

days of being super-women :)

Listening: Five For Fighting - Superman

"i can't stand to fly
i'm not that naive
i'm just out to find
the better part of me..."

not only because i'm in my "Superman's mode" =P
but really...still remember this tunes so well :)
where the madness began along st.patrick's blokes
(i miss you all so damn much !!!)
we're singin' it all over and over again =P
haha..especially on that moment..
we're quite declaring the line ->
"it's not easy to be me"
yeah..we've got same cases in our life
where nobody seems to understand you well..
(haha..i miss our drop dead silly stuffs around da'house..)

recently, i met up with some old friends..
having not seen most of them for at least a year
and they said that i've seemed to changed a lot
am i ??? *glek...hopefully it's on positive sides..haha
i do not want to make changes just for the sake of making changes
i mean..changes....i feel, should take place naturally..
well..a person may seem to have changed quite a lot,
but then something in him or her
will still somehow remain the same...
but how much one can change and yet remain the same?
that's the interesting part =P hmm..once again..
"it's not easy to be me.."

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it's been hours since one of my best-bud leavin' s'pore..
and there we are..at the airport..5 of us (komplit degh euy)
where we're always declare ourselves as superwomen :)
5 gahar women..whom always stands up for women's rights
(wakaka..lalala...) whom always on top of da' guyz !
yang cablaknya selangit...yang kalo dah ngemil kayak sapi..
yang palink seru kalo nginjek2 lelaki tak ada nyali..
(dang ! i'm gonna miss our "girls night out")

but most of all..behind it all..
we've also had quite a tough journey in life..
it's not only in a thing called love..
but also all rough sides of life..
but you know what? i'm really amazed by it...
we're tooooo damn strooongg =P
cuz' we got our STROOONG GOD !!
and we're always put our FAITH in it..
(part of learning God's awesome ways ! ^^)
"segala sesuatu indah pada waktuNya"
and yes it is :) He'll make our paths straight !

hmmm....now one of us have to go..
i believe someday i will too..
continue with our own journey
which is part of His purpose...

i'll be missing you so much vi.. i will..!!
my loveable partner in crime :)
you taught me everything..especially in a way to be strong..
(ahem..also in a way to be a shopaholic..wakaka..insyaaap)
love your words..love your memories with me..
and most of all..love His blessings by givin' me..you !
all the best for your marriage yak !
love you...love you..muwacchhh...!!

for me..i am on my learning journey
to becoming a real Superwoman :)
(*ahem..so no more supergirl =P but superwoman !)

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i feel enriched..i feel more joy
more love..more pain...more sadness...
than every before.................................
where are you??!!

blaaaah...

if you rather believe i’m not over you..go ahead !
there’s nothing wrong with making believe..
i know, cuz i used to pretend you’d come back to me
but time has been such a friend..
brought me to my senses again :)
and i have you to thanked for setting me free..

cause you made me stronger by breaking my heart
you ended my life and made a better one start
you taught me everything..
from falling in love..
to letting go of a lie..

think again..
don’t feel so sorry for me..
don’t you know?
i’m not the one who lose at end..


ps:
urgh..i wish i realized it from the start..
lelaki buayaaa darat...lalalala...

what a noon !!

the wedding reception was such a great time !
so that it deserved it's very own blog post :)
thanks to everyone (committee and guests)
who has been helping and taking this happy journey ^^
which will end in a wonderful new beginning...
it really went well..on time..and lots of great performances
praise Lord !!

as the organizer, i've been extremely overwhelmed !!
by the enthusiasm and interest from so many people,
it's been great & nice to work with you guys..!!

and this post is dedicated to my most memorable people at this event...
we present you...THE COMMITTEE of Mr. and Mrs. Irawan's wedding
 
The Truly Wedding Organizer: Jesus Christ :)

Followed by:
The bride n groom - hilda n riky
(aaaa..senanknyaa..congratz !! love you both !! muach2..
cepet2 ada abuy jr. and hilda jr. yaaa !!)

then..me (as the organizer) and........

i wanna say a HUGE thank you to:
    
Ceremony People:

Wedding Singer - Elita
hey babe..wakaka..o mi gong..awesome voice !!
Btw..video elo segh menghibur berat..!   
Ring Bearer - Daniel 
dearly daniel..u look handsome !! :) thx ci dewi & ko jackdy
Flower Girl - Rebecca 
our beautiful rebecca..love you more ^^ (*ahem..koko2 sibuk fallin' for u tuh)
Maid of Honour - Rita
haha..mbak..makaci yaa !! Love u ! Thx for eperitin..
Best Man - David Chandra
vid :) it's a pleasure..thank u ! You look great :)
    
Receptionist:   
Vera  - ver ! Thx for helpin' decorations yak !
Fenni, Silvia Huang, Dian - you girls look awesome !! Thank u so muchhh !!
    
Ushers:   
Andre Habib, Oliph, Irwan, Achie, Tina
Thank u so muchh !! Especially pas nge-rush lighting the candles..
hoho..u guys are great !
    
MC:   
Linda Marelie 
haha..my assistant ! :) thx for everything ! MC got it goooooddd...love u !!
Melissa "bombie" 
bombiieee…loovveee uuuuu..makaci berattzz..MC got it goooooddd…

Dance:   
Elliot 
yooott…makaciii for the video..the dance..everything !
Doa-ku beserta italy malem ini..HAHAHA
Sasa + Jane + Jessica + Nasha
you girls are angels !! ^^ love you all…!!
    
WL + Singers:    
Nicholas 
nik..makaci ya..thx for your "alert" senses..wekeke..great WL ^^ 
Meli & Albert 
waaa…sweet song ^^ ("hanya Kau")
can't wait for your upcoming wedz ^^ thx yaaa !!!

Musicians:    
Keyboard -
Harti 
hartiii..you're the best ! Love yaa..amazed by your skills..^^
Bass -
Johan MK 
mas..jangan salah kirim sms lage ye..haha..
thx for everything ! It went great !
Drum -
Darwin 
winn !! Makaciii…bangeeet !! Hehe…eniwei…1-0 booww..

Multimedia:   
Powerpoint video -
Ari "Meong" 
dewa-nya slides..relax bro'..it went great !
Looking forward untuk ngebuatin slides for "jr.kids" haha..thx !!
Video Taping -
Ko Jackdy 
koooo..makaci banyak :) 
Photographer:   
Daniel "Baplanx", Andre, Tanjaya 
thx for everythiiingg !!! Poto2nya baguuuss..kyaa…
cepetan burn yaa ^^ kirim kirimmmm...ps: plank: thx 4 the performance :)
Sound System & Logistic   
Adrian, Chiank, Ivan
man..without u all..ga ada lagu2..suara2..dll…
whoaa..makaciiii banyaak !!!
    
Special Thanks to:   
Ci El, Erick, Chandra, Ko Omar , Vivi, Rimbo 
really appreciate your helps !! :)
thank u so much..you've been such a blessing !
Wawan
sweet voice..great performance..
great surprise !! (akhirnya dateeenk juga) thx wan !

we will always remember and cherish this wedding day
and look forward to creating many more happy moments :)

thank you so much !! you guys did a great job ^^
i couldn't done it all without your helps !
thanks for your great ideas and time :)
love you all..be blessed ! praise Lord !!
God bless u !! ^^

ps:
and to people who helped me in the morning time,
(linda, chandra, meonx, ivan, erick, adrian, rimboen, vera)
helping me with decorations and sound-system set-up by:
spreadin' feathers & petals, placin' sash & ribbons,
cuttin' flowers, decorating our own stage n gallery ! ^^
(oh man..without you all around me on that time..
i don't think we can see a beautiful stage & aisle !!)
and of course vivi (for setting up the Hi-Fi =P)
love you love you !! hehehe ^^

i've got fever !

Okay i am totally insane,
i will not be the first one to admit to that..
i slept last night at 5:00 am
i have to leave my house at 8:00 am
now..the time at this moment is 5:16 pm..
and i am totally sleepyyyy  (-____-)"

but trust me..i know my body..
the way today i grab red-bull(s)..
consuming cans of nescafe(s)..
forcin' myself to be jazzed up..
but still..i've got scatter-brained and dizzy,.
and i've got quite a high-fever...

yeah..my one is..World Cup Fever..

World Cup Fever =   "hari ngemil sedunia"
                              "hari begadang sedunia"

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Oh World Cup..i love you..!

terantukku pada kenangan
di saat dirimu bergulir indah
melintasi segala sudut pandangan
yang lapang dan tiada bercelah

tak lelah mata tuk coba membelalak
di antara kerlip dan gerlap
tak hentinya tuk selalu bersiap
di antara sorak dan teriak

terngiangku pada kenangan
di saat dirimu merambat indah
melintasi segala sudut pendengaran
yang serupa petir tak berbelah

oh piala dunia..
meski pegel dan lidah-pun kelu
meski mata serupa panda
tetap kan kunanti kau selalu..

why i love tay..and he deserved to win !

DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?
(Taylor Hicks)


i never mean the one to raised my hand
that was not me..and now that's who i am
because of you...i am standing tall..
my heart is full..of endless gratitude
you were the one..the one to guide me through
now i can see and i believe
it's only just beginning..
 
this is what we're dream about
but the only question with me now
it's "do i make you proud"
stronger than i ever been now..
 
everybody needs to rise up
everybody needs to be loved..
to be loved..

 

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if you guys start to questioning...
"why taylor won?"..."why why why.."
i think you better stay 1000 miles from me..or else.....

stop askin"why TAYLOR won the IDOL?"!
(ok..there's quite numbers of you..)

have u ever wondered why???
CUZ' HE's AWESOME ! that's why !!!
he just being himself..!!
not like that "FAKE KAT"
(i admitted..i also love kat last time..
but then she's gettin' cockier and more cocky than ever?!"
i mean...COMMON KAT & KAT FANS...let's face reality !!
you've been in BOTTOM 3 for SO MANY TIMES !!
you even touch the BOTTOM 2 ground for MANY TIMES !!
and my taylor? excuse me...please open up your eyes...

he's never been in the bottom 3 weeks after weeks?!
 
 ok..for the truth..
i'm eyeing on him since the very 1st time i saw him..
when American Idol's played a clips about "hair"
(if you remember =P) then i saw him walkin' to the room..
maaan...he's a heart-rob..love his style..love his voice..
and i still remember how i scream and pleased God,
so that American Idol will pass him to Hollywood (2nd round)
but simon didn't allow him...aarghh...
and finally ! thank God !! he passed !! thx to paula n randy..

i started to call him "the gray hair" guy..
instead of calling his real name =P
started to turn on his musics (his band -> SOUL PATROL)
started to put him on my desktop..haha..and my msn
(if you guys ever realized...)

he swingin' his tunes...with his loveable n unique style..
i kept on eyeing every minutes of AI's clips..
in order to check..whether he still around there or not..
and then ! yeay ! there's my tay ! along with patrick hall's group
(with black sun-glasses...hahaha..i miss it !!)
then he start to be moooreee adorable than ever !
still remember the "easter bunny" ^^ love it !!
and finally...he's on the right room !! yippie !!
TOP 24...i still voted for him !!
i'm dancin..i'm singin' and go crazy with his performance..
still clear in mind..about his quote:

" If music is in your heart,
  you feel it, you play it, you sing it,
  you perform it, you bust your buns doing it.
  That’s what its all about !!"

and he went all the way to final 12 ^^
haha..i love the way he dance !!!

and his "SOUL PATROL" thingy +
his "WO-HOOOOO" stuffs...
maaan...i'm so in love !!

he got attitude..personality..humble..
professional...intelegent bloke... :)

you go tayyy !!! each weeks i supported him..
even though some people said bad things about him..
well..i dooonnnttt careeee...and oh yeah..
he had never been in the bottom 3 until the FINAL comes !!

and you get the result..
you know how i felt...
i'm jumpin' and screamin' around...
TAYLOR HICKS through it all !!!
hahahaha...

one more time people..

"it's a TAY DAYYY !!!"

AMERICAN IDOL RESULT !!!

(Source: http://www.aol.com)
 

my quest for finding a thing called TV..
started with an early morning wake-up
in order to catch the bus..and watch the result show @8AM
*dang !* 1 over 100 bus of 124 didn't have TV?!
and why TV Mobile didn't play Channel 5?!
almost cryin' but luckily our fave kopitiam served it...
 
OK here's the recap..
juz' pickin' some good moments...ehehe..
here's some snaps of Chris & Yamin !!
 

 
- Chris Daughtry performs with Live
(*dang..i told u since the 1st time i saw chris..
he's indeed looks like Ed Kowalczyk..)
overal rating: 8 out of 10
 
- Katharine McPhee sings with Meatloaf
(man..i still remember how i loved his song in my previous life =P
haha...overall rating: 4 out of 10 (for kat !)
 
The gates openin'...and....
The guys perform ! Oh my !!
BUCKY !! Chris ! ELLIOTT ! Ace ! Kevin !
and my Tay plays harmonica ^^ (love him !)
 

 
Oh this was an awesome performance !!! (10 out of 10)
i miss the guys !!! i really dooooooo....!!!
 
- Elliott Yamin sings One with Mary J. Blige!
(argh..i miss elliott !! i really doooo !!)
overall rating: 9 out of 10 (since mary j blige a bit out of tunes)
 
Carrie Underwood sings Don’t Forget to Remember Me
(ok..i admitted...she's an idol figure...)
 
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Taylor Hicks sings with Toni Braxton
(oh man..she really can't get off her hand over tay ! *freak*)
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It’s the girls’ time to perfrom now...
(dang ! why their dresses looks sooo perfect n awesome?!)
ouch i miss MANDISAA !! melissaaa ! lisa ! paris + kellie.. 
Mandisa gets cheers ! YEAYYY !!!
 
WOW....and guess what??!!
 
hahaha..the "gay" guy clips
(man..i still remember him sooo damn well !!)
ouch..don't tell me the real Clay will comin?!
but then...who's that?! with "weird" hair cut?
and....
and......OMG....it's....OH MAN....
 
CLAY!!!! CLAY!!! CLAY!!!!
 
THIS IS THE MOST AWESOME SHOW EVER!!!!
 
IT'S CLAY AIKEEEENNN ladies and gentlemeeenn !!!
 
 

Check out his new hair?! i was soo shocked !!
but he's sooo sexyyy..so britttt !! i loveee brit blokes =P
 Woohoo! Clay Aiken is still my American Idol..
Still going strong three years later :)
 
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The Idols sing Burt Bacharach songs…
wonderin' why they always sing it every year?
 
Elliott Yamin is singing A House is Not a Home
(GOSH...i was sooo touched ! bursted myself in tears
especially when his mom givin' her words....
oo i love her !! ok his girlfriend was there too...)
 
 Paris Bennett is singing Close to You,
then introduces…the one and only Dionne Warwick!
 
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Commercial…and more commercial..
(my heart pumpin' out) but then again, i'm not really worried..
cause i'm very SURE that TAY will win this competition !!
 
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PRINCE PERFORMS !
(ok..he's a bit out here...i mean..common..
high heels? purple suit? combing his hair? maaann...)
 
and finally...ouch !!!
THIS IS THE BEST RESULTS SHOW EVER !
OMG ! THANK YOU AMERICAN IDOL !!
THIS IS THE BEST....EVER !!
 
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The results:
 
TAYLOR HICKS WINS AMERICAN IDOL !!!
 

 
 
CONGRATULATIONS !!
SOUL PATROL..SOUL PATROL..
WOHOOOOO !!!
 
 

 

???

[01:27:31 PM]  lost in space says:
yg bilang di post lo itu bener
[01:27:38 PM] lost in space says:
kalo ce gak selalu end up ma tipe dia
[01:27:50 PM] lost in space says:
kalo co bakal lbh strict ma tipe dia,
kalo dia uda gak demen ya susah
[01:28:33 PM]  lost in space says:
g bilang co punya simpenan karena ntah tu ce emank bukan tipe dia,
jadi kalo ketemu yg tipe dia bisa selingkuh

*ahem..nah loh nah loh…
so how? get the point..ladies and gentlemen?
well..that’s so sound scary…cuz’ it’s a man’s comment loh =P

btw heey.. relax…he’s a good guy anyway..
juz’ givin’ some “common” comment based on guys
(haha..my guy-friends are good guys J)

so..1^st comment of my day..

[01:30:28 PM]  lost in space says:
kalo lo demen tipe tertentu bisa lead on to sparks

conclusion:

that “sparks” related to or commin’ from
the exact numbers of match-points in “your type’s criteria”
hmmmm….agree anyone?
(well..not for me though =P)

ps:
thx bol ^^  !
btw boool…i miss u daaaamn much !
hope to see u sooonnn…*ga sabar*
cepetan kesini yeee…!

are you a "type" person?

"What's your type?"

"Err... my type?"

haha..rrr..talkin' about "type",
i just finished our talks with mr. & mrs. adhiguna
and also balestier(ers) - ps: happy birthday edwin !
and continue to have a talk with my guy-friends over the net..

ok..i'm a girl's guys..(*ahem..in this case: "best-friend")
and i'm fortunate to have many guy friends..
whom i can count on for good times and support..
but it’s struck me recently that it's not always wise
to turn to them for "lovey-dovey" tips...

e.g:
to a guy that u like..but it's soo nooott your type:
(especially if they're already knew what kind of "type" you want)

a) "Is that what you want? That doesn't sound like you."

b) "Give him a chance! He may grow on you."

graaawlll...should i listen to them?
which one shall i choose? i just need solutions?!
because on that moment..sometimes..
we couldn't hear the logics yelling: "keep an open mind!"
but how to?! for me, mostly..
women doesn't really stick to their "type" at the end
but men do...(yeaah..men dooooo)

it's fun for having a crush on someone
who you know you're not gonna get :)
especially when it's in a matter of his/her "type" that they want..
you can actually dream on and on about the person
without losing and without crawling for hope..
(oooh delooon..hahaha *beep* censored)

ok..for a) & b) case..
*geez*...i shall not tellin' any words...
beside that i appreciate what they're tryin' to tell me so..
plank told me that i need a "man" not a "boy"
ha ha ha =P setuju plank !
anyway...we can't start a fire without a spark..
but is it true that your "type" shall lead you to "sparks"?
think..it's not a guarantee that your "type" shall lead you to "sparks"
or even though he's your type & spark's already added in..
but have u ever thinked whether you're his "type" too or not?

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ps:
i just need a man
not a boy who thinks he can...

pheew...

ok ok..here it goes again..
addin' a copy from my xanga's blog
(cuz' some of you complaining that you couldn't reach my xanga's from your web)
dang you're lucky pals ! =P hahaha..

Monday, May 15, 2006

why love must be dealin' with lots of shocking stuffs?
are there any news or signs that leads us to that?
think it'll be more easier to heals....
or even more lightly to try diggin' it more deeper..
hmmm...it's not that i hate being in loved..
well..at this moment..i mean, i'm not hating it..
i just hate guessing and questioning it anyway..
it just makes me imagine a whole lot "more"..
more pain..more worried..more "fake hopes"

i told one of my "past" best bud before..
(ehem..if u readin' it and realized..ehehehe)
yeah...i don't like to put "hope(s)" high..
(in this case...in a thing called LOVE yeee..)
i hate to imagine or questioning things to myself..
cuz' usually it leads me to the "backward" of it..
you know sometimes i imagine the backward...
in hoping that reality will leads me to "backward" from it again..
get it? ehehe....well..haha i'm not being pesismist..
but then it happened quite lots of time in me..
luckily..praise Lord..i still can control my mind and soul..
that this way are part of ways that God's leads me to :)
so whatever happens...i will not get dissapointed..

for the truth...what is the real meaning of "feeling" anyway..
think a lil' thing from that, you'll just need to be prepare
if you don't carry and control it properly..*ZAPS*
you'll be gone...for sure ! =P juz' like what the words say:
"too much love will kill you"

ps:
haha..everybody around me already "together"
congratz yeee for the "new couple" (again?!) haha..
waitin' for your fully report n updated news :)
have a blessed relationships..!

o yea one more ! btw planx..
apaan tu "setrum2"..ahahaha...jelek lo !

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